All the things I need you to know this Mother’s Day
It still doesn’t seem real sometimes, you and me. I often find myself staring at you in disbelief, trying to memorize every detail of you. After all, I’ve wanted this for so long, and finally I’m here, WE are finally here, together.
Our time together has been a whirlwind. Challenging, both mentally and physically, but also easy; loving you is easy.
As I am sitting here, thinking about Mother’s Day, I realized that there is so much I want to tell you, so much that I want you to know, so much that I need you to know. So, I thought “why not write these things down?” so someday I can remind you that you are best Mother’s Day gift, the reason I am a “Mom” in the first place.
I wished for you, and still do.
I have wished for these moments over and over again for years, to be a mom, to be your mom. I wished for you before you even existed, I’ve wished for you everyday I was carrying you in my belly, I’ve wished for you every day since, and I will wish for you everyday moving forward. Your life is a continuous answered wish.
I have loved you since the moment I found out about you
There has not been a single moment since that first thought “Oh maybe I am pregnant” that I have not loved you. In moments of pure bliss and in moments of fear, uncertainty, even in moments of frustration, there has not a single point in time that I don’t love you. You have been and always will be loved.
Your smile lights up my life
When you smile at me, I melt. I will do anything and everything to make you smile.
When you’re sad, I’m sad
As your mom, all I want is for you to be happy and content, so when you’re fussing, when you are upset, know that I recognize that, and I will do everything in my power to alleviate your pain.
I could hold you forever
Just know that when I am holding you, and you feel safe and secure, so do I. I love being your safe haven, I hope I always am.
I’ll always be there for you when you need me
Even if the dishes are piling up, I have twenty deadlines to meet, I need to make dinner, I haven’t showered in 3 days, if you need me, I’ll be there. You are my priority.
I want you to know who I am and be proud to say I am your mom
Before you, I was (insert a volume of lifetime description here). Now, my first and most important role is as your mother, and I am still the person of life previous too. I don’t want to lose sight of who I have been in my life because I want you to know me apart from being your mother, I want to make you proud to say I am your mom.
You are capable of anything and I am always proud of you
Big or small accomplishments, they all matter, and I am proud of you for every one of them that you reach. Always remember that your potential is unlimited and that you are capable of changing the world. I promise I will be right beside you as you do it.
I am growing with you
Truth is, I don’t have all the answers, and most of the time I am scared of messing up, but I am trying. All I want to do, is keep you happy, healthy, and safe. I promise I will always do what I think is best for you. As you continue to grow, just know I am growing right alongside you, I am learning everyday just as you are too.
Thank you and I love you
On good days and bad days, and all the days in-between, I love you. I will always love you. Thank you for choosing me to be your Mom, you are the best part of my life.
Happy Mother’s Day to us, I wouldn’t be here without you.
Samantha Finch is a graduate of Pace University with a MA in Media Communications and Journalism and a minor in Photography. She has been photographing across the Hudson Valley since 2007, telling the stories of the amazing residents and business owners of our Rivertowns.